Yesterday i was writing in my RV journal about what things i would bring if i got a 22 ft C-Class, which would be big enough to have storage (using the upper bunk as my 'attic'), to live in semi-permanently. I found that i would want to bring pretty well everything that i loved to do.. past, present & probable future, and of course a sampling of most of my collections! Most of my art supplies, including encaustics & art books for inspiration & experimentation... travel-size sewing machine to make my dolls (& the occasional repair)... essential oils for medicinal purposes, to study & for concoctions... maybe some of my beading supplies... some felt for penny rugs... runes, tarot, pendulum, an altar &; my meditation pillow or bench... a Kindle (i plan to buy the next incarnation) full of books... and maybe a cappuccino machine so i can be a Barista Babe who barters capps for food & supplies! But mostly it was about the art.
I'd more than likely be alone living in an RV for fairly long periods of time, so i wanted to explore my art. Honestly though, mostly because i need SOME form of income. But that brought me to the question that's been bouncing around in my bean for many years now. I'm alone all the time in this prison cell i'm in now too... so why not just do it here... on Bowen Island... in my beautiful big new house with LOTS of room for every conceivable art form & my entire library of books for inspiration? Why not here??
If i think about art... or focusing on my spirituality (or whatever), i just can't do it. I have the desire.. the really STRONG DESIRE to do it, but.... i feel as if i am trying to trudge through air as thick as molasses. Think about actually sitting down & doing it, and it turns to knee deep muck and i'm utterly mired! There's no way on earth i can pull my feet out, the suction is so strong! Not without leaving my boots behind! And that, i believe, is symbolic of leaving my life behind. The boots are my house & my life HERE. I need to LEAVE them in order to be free to do what i want to do.
That's the FEELING. Now whether or not that's the reality, is another thing! AND the grand experiment, isn't it? Let's just see if i will actually DO all these things that i want to do, if i am free of those 'boots'! If i CAN, then the house definitely has something to do with it. If i still can't, well then... as they say... your problems will follow you no matter WHERE you roam, and that will confirm that!
I can hear people saying (& have actually been told by some)... "Just suck it up and DO it!"... "Put on your Big Girl Panties and DEAL with it!".... *sigh* Yeah, i know... but easier said than done. If i could, i would (& i have tried these tactics, among others). I'm sorry, but i truly feel i NEED to leave this place in order to go on this 'Quest' to find... SOMEthing.. i don't even know what!
Of course when it comes to Yellowknife though, i will only be able to bring what i can carry in my large backpack and a small carry-on! So only clothing (& not nearly as much as i need, considering the temp will be going from hot summer to -30C!), my weight scale (to help control my seriously flailing metabolism), some watercolour/gouache for art supplies, and maybe a few miniature samples of my collections so i can feel at home. But that's about it! If i explore art, it will have to be with gouache unfortunately (NOT my forté... i like acrylics, but they take up WAY too much room, never mind the extreme weight!). And maybe the Shambhala Meditation group is still active up there, and i can join that. That and walk! Get back into backpacking shape! We'll have to see if i actually DO these things.
Now.. about this house that i feel mired in. Before it was built, i actually did do some painting in the old cottage! I finally got the extra little bedroom wall & ceiling ripped out so that it could be added to my bedroom. It became my studio and i did paint. That was about the last time i did any real painting! Once the house was being built, i was looking forward to the studio there. I thought it would be just 6 months to a year, but it's now 5 years + and counting, and the house is still not done. I've been living in it for the last year or so (once the cottage was torn down), but without an occupancy permit. The reasons for that are too infuriatingly frustrating to mention here (not to mention lengthy), but the simple version is i just can't get tradesmen to come in to finish it. Once i've got that permit, i'm good! I DO realize that things will always need to be be done, but at that point, i won't care, because the house would finally legally be mine to live in! Know what i mean?
This perpetually unfinished status, plus the fact that the house if full of stuff that needs to be de-junked, just... freezes me. I look at what needs to be done and i get so overwhelmed, that i don't do anything! It could be the whole 'feng shui' thing too. SO much clutter & SO much unfinished... juju.. i don't know... the energy is STUCK. Hmmm. Is that 'molasses-thick air' i mentioned earlier, the heavy 'stuck' energy i'm feeling? Hey... It could simply be a matter of feng shui and cleaning this place up!
I don't know WHAT it is, but I'M stuck! Hence the move... hence the 'experiment'. Of course there is my intense need of adventure too! Does any this make any sense?
(above is the original template that was used for this post...
Note the meandering, free bird...)
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
My Life in a Cupcake....
Cupcakes |
It's funny... I just finished writing to my friend about what's happening in my life right now, and i ended it with the words that popped into my head... "So that's MY world in a cupcake right now!" Lol... sort of a different take on 'my world in a nutshell' i guess, but i LOVE cupcakes, so, that spilled out!
So yeah, i loved it so much, that i'm going to switch the name of my blog from 'Amber's Filawsuffy 'n Stuff' to 'My World in a Cupcake'. I think it suits me more.
Plus, on the art side of this coin, i plan to paint cupcakes now & then (on canvas, not the cupcakes themselves.. hehe), so... There you go!
My Life in a Cupcake. HEY! I like that even better! Oooh, i see it's going to be going back and forth between the two for a while...
(This is this post with its original template) --->
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Just a quick note about comments...
One thing i didn't like here on blogspot ,other than our inability to comment on a specific comment, was that when i commented in someone else's blog, i wouldn't know if they answered my comment or not, without going back & checking. But... where was that comment i did again? I don't remember! *sigh*
But now... silly me... i just noticed the option that we can click when we comment, to have followup comments emailed to us! Why hadn't i noticed that before??? Lol. Now i'll tick that box whenever i comment, so that i can get updates on it! I can always click 'un-follow' after i've gotten my reply!
COOLIO! :-D
But now... silly me... i just noticed the option that we can click when we comment, to have followup comments emailed to us! Why hadn't i noticed that before??? Lol. Now i'll tick that box whenever i comment, so that i can get updates on it! I can always click 'un-follow' after i've gotten my reply!
COOLIO! :-D
Friday, February 11, 2011
Testing Windows Live Writer….
I’m going to add some pictures…. OH… the ‘ in I’m is not a French e with accent (stoopid keyboard)! I have to reboot to get rid of the French, but Live Writer automatically changed it to what it’s supposed to be! Great!
Anyway, VERY cool… look what I did to this little picture here! I cropped it and TILTED it! PLUS I added a copyright thingy & a ‘reflection’. WOW. Way easier to position the pic too, compared to the regular blogger way! Nice!
And this… I like being able to round the corners of a picture too! You can set up, say, rounded corners as the default as well as the size if you want.
What else can this thing do? Hmm. I’m kind of tired right now, and not in the mood to explore any more. So I’ll just keep it at this for now. But even THIS is a BIG improvement! AND it posts it to my blogger!
I’m impressed SO far….
Ok... well, i had to save the post to Drafts in blogger, then go to blogger... Edit Posts... then publish the post. BUT... the paragraph spaces weren't there, so i had to add them. Still, this may be useful, just for all the stuff you can do with the pics!
Nope, wait.. i found the 'Publish this Post' button on Window's Live... so maybe if it's published directly to the blog, instead of to the drafts, the paragraphs will be there. Well, we'll see next time...
Anyway, VERY cool… look what I did to this little picture here! I cropped it and TILTED it! PLUS I added a copyright thingy & a ‘reflection’. WOW. Way easier to position the pic too, compared to the regular blogger way! Nice!
And this… I like being able to round the corners of a picture too! You can set up, say, rounded corners as the default as well as the size if you want.
What else can this thing do? Hmm. I’m kind of tired right now, and not in the mood to explore any more. So I’ll just keep it at this for now. But even THIS is a BIG improvement! AND it posts it to my blogger!
I’m impressed SO far….
Ok... well, i had to save the post to Drafts in blogger, then go to blogger... Edit Posts... then publish the post. BUT... the paragraph spaces weren't there, so i had to add them. Still, this may be useful, just for all the stuff you can do with the pics!
Nope, wait.. i found the 'Publish this Post' button on Window's Live... so maybe if it's published directly to the blog, instead of to the drafts, the paragraphs will be there. Well, we'll see next time...
Thursday, February 3, 2011
More fun with blogger templates!
I have so much fun customizing blogs, that i offered to help another friend with her blog! We went through a few templates (i installed them for her), and she picked one that she liked. Then i left her to play with the text colours and sat back & watched, while i frequently 'refreshed' her blog.
OH, the transformations it went through! First, it went all gray, pretty template gone... then the fonts went back to basic plain stuff... then a HUGE header of her art filled the page... then she obviously ticked 'shrink to fit', and the header fit (it looked nice!), BUT... the body of the blog (the posts) was gone. There was only the Title & a description underneath there! More happened with fonts, etc, (obviously she was trying to fix whatever she did), but the body was still gone. Actually, it wasn't gone. There was just a HUGE gap between it and the header. You had to scroll down forever just to get to it! AAAAAA!
I had to leave (i had been waiting for her to accept a chat invite, so i could help her work it out, but she was obviously busy. So in the morning, i went back into her blog to see what had happened. There were 2 or 3 superfluous HTML/Javascript gadget boxes with other versions of templates in them, so i deleted them, hoping that would solve the problem. It didn't. So i tried deleting the HTML box with the current template in it, and reverted back to the 'Simple' template she had started with. Nope. The HUGE gap was still there. Urgh! Now what? And i couldn't see anything in the actual HTML of the template. *Shrug*
So i emailed my friend Mark, who sees all and knows all. Unfortunately, in his words... "I may be able to design the inner guts of a computer and redefine the universe but I have done very little with HTML and Javascripts". Lol! So, no help there! So i then emailed the wonderful lady who created the beautiful free background we were using. It wasn't her fault, but i thought that she may have an idea what happened.
Then i went back to fiddling with it. I ended up trying to go back to the old, OLD template of OLD blogger and applied that. Then went to install the new one again, and... it was really like being back in time! Apparently doing that un-installed the new 'Template Designer' that blogger installed recently, so i had to re-install it. And when i did, and applied the appropriate 'Minima' template that one must have in order to use these free backgrounds... All of the colour & text customization changes i had made were gone but.... so was the huge gap! Low & behold, the problem was solved! Yay! I was so relieved! I emailed the nice lady & told her she doesn't need to answer, and thanks.
So... the template that i have installed right now, for this specific post (& will take a screen shot of and add at the end of this post so that one can see it after i've changed my template for my next post), is the template that my friend chose. Her blog is Art Absolutely. :-) Isn't it cute? I think she made a great choice!
(Note: Her blog DID look like the pic below, but she has now changed it).
OH, the transformations it went through! First, it went all gray, pretty template gone... then the fonts went back to basic plain stuff... then a HUGE header of her art filled the page... then she obviously ticked 'shrink to fit', and the header fit (it looked nice!), BUT... the body of the blog (the posts) was gone. There was only the Title & a description underneath there! More happened with fonts, etc, (obviously she was trying to fix whatever she did), but the body was still gone. Actually, it wasn't gone. There was just a HUGE gap between it and the header. You had to scroll down forever just to get to it! AAAAAA!
I had to leave (i had been waiting for her to accept a chat invite, so i could help her work it out, but she was obviously busy. So in the morning, i went back into her blog to see what had happened. There were 2 or 3 superfluous HTML/Javascript gadget boxes with other versions of templates in them, so i deleted them, hoping that would solve the problem. It didn't. So i tried deleting the HTML box with the current template in it, and reverted back to the 'Simple' template she had started with. Nope. The HUGE gap was still there. Urgh! Now what? And i couldn't see anything in the actual HTML of the template. *Shrug*
So i emailed my friend Mark, who sees all and knows all. Unfortunately, in his words... "I may be able to design the inner guts of a computer and redefine the universe but I have done very little with HTML and Javascripts". Lol! So, no help there! So i then emailed the wonderful lady who created the beautiful free background we were using. It wasn't her fault, but i thought that she may have an idea what happened.
Then i went back to fiddling with it. I ended up trying to go back to the old, OLD template of OLD blogger and applied that. Then went to install the new one again, and... it was really like being back in time! Apparently doing that un-installed the new 'Template Designer' that blogger installed recently, so i had to re-install it. And when i did, and applied the appropriate 'Minima' template that one must have in order to use these free backgrounds... All of the colour & text customization changes i had made were gone but.... so was the huge gap! Low & behold, the problem was solved! Yay! I was so relieved! I emailed the nice lady & told her she doesn't need to answer, and thanks.
So... the template that i have installed right now, for this specific post (& will take a screen shot of and add at the end of this post so that one can see it after i've changed my template for my next post), is the template that my friend chose. Her blog is Art Absolutely. :-) Isn't it cute? I think she made a great choice!
(Note: Her blog DID look like the pic below, but she has now changed it).
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Time is flying by SO FAST!! I need to travel NOW!
Was it really 10 years ago that i was in my early 40's thinking... wow... 1/2 a century is coming up fast! And this morning i woke up to the realization that sixty is the next big number! Sixty! Like... how can that happen? I don't feel any older! I still feel like i'm 25! But just a quick look at my saggy bits will tell you i'm not! Hehe.. don't worry.. i won't subject you to that horror! Although i'm much more irresponsible now, than i was when i was 25 (OH, if you can even imagine it)!
I don't really have any regrets in my life so far, other than 'that' one. The one where i didn't go to Art School, and instead got married. Like i couldn't get married AND go to school?? What was i thinking?? *sigh* Water under the bridge, and my one and only true regret.
But MAN, all i've ever wanted to do was travel! When i was younger, with little kids, i would take the kids (or the youngest one who wasn't in school), and take off on long Road Trips! I remember one said trip with said daughter, when she was 2 yrs old, while her three brothers were in school. She & i were gone for six weeks & headed down through Washington, Oregon, California, Nevada & back up to Utah and then home (Vancouver, BC). What an incredible trip! Las Vegas for the one night of the year that it rained! What a blessing! I have never seen anything so gorgeous as Las Vegas neon reflecting off the wet pavement! You should BE so lucky as to be there when it rains!
Anyway, i digress. The point is, i'm getting old fast, and i haven't been off of this continent! Well, other than Hawaii a few years ago, Japan when i was 17, Bahamas for my honeymoon, Barbados & Venezuela for my hubbie's job interview way back when i was pregnant with my first... Oh, OK, i have been off this continent. But i haven't been to Europe & Africa & Asia as a whole, etc. I want to see the world, and time is running out!
(BTW, this is this post with its original template) --->
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Sometimes i think too much! Hehe.
I haven't even left for Yellowknife yet, and i'm already wondering what will happen when i get back! I started writing this in my Yellowknife blog (Dreams of a Life in Yellowknife), but... considering it was about what comes after YK, i thought i'd post it here instead. Anyway, i asked Murray to make a bet. What scenario is going to happen. Assuming that nothing horrible happens, health is good with everyone, etc, and there IS a choice involved.
Yellowknife:
-- I can't find a job, or am too lonely & i bail out the end of December/beginning of January after 1/2 a year and fly home. Which is ok now that i've now given myself permission to consider this a possibility. I would have been up there on the longest day of the year and the longest night. And the Aurora is most active in the fall & spring, so that's covered too. Plus the snow. I could conceivably 'see it all' in 6 months.
-- I meet friends, enjoy my job, feel inspired, whatever, and stay the full year.
Arriving in Vancouver:
-- I get back and am so overwhelmed by having lived full-time in a 'city' (Yellowknife), that i can't wait to be a full-time recluse in my cozy country sanctuary again, and vow to never leave.
-- I get back and loved being in the city so much, that i find i need to rent a room in Vancouver just to keep my sanity. (Now this one is a good bet, i'd say... and it was Murray's bet).
-- I fly back, stay a while, just to see my friends & family. Then i load the car up to the max with all my favourite treasures (can't forget some robots, ray guns, hula girls & books, books, books!) & have Moo drive me and all my stuff back up to Yellowknife, because i loved living North of 60 so much!
-- I get back, and land on my feet running! Let's get this show on the road! I want to travel... start my vagabonding plans! Bye!... See ya! I'm off!
Hehehehe... Do i think too much or what?? :-P
(BTW, this is this post with its original template) --->
Yellowknife:
-- I can't find a job, or am too lonely & i bail out the end of December/beginning of January after 1/2 a year and fly home. Which is ok now that i've now given myself permission to consider this a possibility. I would have been up there on the longest day of the year and the longest night. And the Aurora is most active in the fall & spring, so that's covered too. Plus the snow. I could conceivably 'see it all' in 6 months.
-- I meet friends, enjoy my job, feel inspired, whatever, and stay the full year.
Arriving in Vancouver:
-- I get back and am so overwhelmed by having lived full-time in a 'city' (Yellowknife), that i can't wait to be a full-time recluse in my cozy country sanctuary again, and vow to never leave.
-- I get back and loved being in the city so much, that i find i need to rent a room in Vancouver just to keep my sanity. (Now this one is a good bet, i'd say... and it was Murray's bet).
-- I fly back, stay a while, just to see my friends & family. Then i load the car up to the max with all my favourite treasures (can't forget some robots, ray guns, hula girls & books, books, books!) & have Moo drive me and all my stuff back up to Yellowknife, because i loved living North of 60 so much!
-- I get back, and land on my feet running! Let's get this show on the road! I want to travel... start my vagabonding plans! Bye!... See ya! I'm off!
Hehehehe... Do i think too much or what?? :-P
(BTW, this is this post with its original template) --->
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Six Days Solid Nerd-Work Finally DONE! :-)
I have been having a blast! I have been creating blogs for myself, and the last few days, searching the internet for free templates to make them pretty. It's ALL about the pretty! Seeing i'm not painting, this has been a wonderful creative outlet for me! Found some fabulous ones for my other blogs, but this one... this particular blog (Amber's Filawsuffy), i'm going to change the template for every post i make! I have a good 200 or so that i like & have saved. Plus i found a couple that i think my friend 'Ladybug' will like. Oh, i'm sure she'll like ALL of them, but the ladybug one i found (pictured here) is a good start!
And what did that entail? Well nothing too technical (unless you're computer illiterate) but... Hours & hours & HOURS of searching of course. Hours more of applying them to my blog to see how they'd look. Discarding the ones i didn't like, and keeping the ones i did. If i liked one, i would save a screen shot of it, crop the superfluous screen junk out of it, save it to my computer then save it to a facebook album. Then i would copy the link to the template in the album, so i can look at all of these templates pictured on on my own blog, and have the code on hand to change it at a whim. Hours & hours... days & DAYS i say!! And i would stay up until 3 am too boot! Hehe.
Now that is what i'm like when i'm obsessed with a project! I was like that with cross-stitch OH those many moons ago too. Dinner? Go make it yourself! I'm stitching another Sampler! Laundry? Oh, when the pile gets so high you can't get out of your room... THEN i'll think about doing it!
And this time, it was fun but... i'm glad it's over! I'm tired! :-)
I shudder to think what i'll be like if i get to painting again! Actually it would be wonderful and fun. For me at least... not for anyone else! They'd never see me!
Ah well.... The trials of living with an obsessed artist!
(BTW, this is this post with its original template) --->
And what did that entail? Well nothing too technical (unless you're computer illiterate) but... Hours & hours & HOURS of searching of course. Hours more of applying them to my blog to see how they'd look. Discarding the ones i didn't like, and keeping the ones i did. If i liked one, i would save a screen shot of it, crop the superfluous screen junk out of it, save it to my computer then save it to a facebook album. Then i would copy the link to the template in the album, so i can look at all of these templates pictured on on my own blog, and have the code on hand to change it at a whim. Hours & hours... days & DAYS i say!! And i would stay up until 3 am too boot! Hehe.
Now that is what i'm like when i'm obsessed with a project! I was like that with cross-stitch OH those many moons ago too. Dinner? Go make it yourself! I'm stitching another Sampler! Laundry? Oh, when the pile gets so high you can't get out of your room... THEN i'll think about doing it!
And this time, it was fun but... i'm glad it's over! I'm tired! :-)
I shudder to think what i'll be like if i get to painting again! Actually it would be wonderful and fun. For me at least... not for anyone else! They'd never see me!
Ah well.... The trials of living with an obsessed artist!
(BTW, this is this post with its original template) --->
Monday, January 24, 2011
Yes... ANOTHER new blog...
I like to think that i'm a simple person, but when it comes right down to it, i really am quite complex. Amber... a multifaceted jewel... (or hunk of old resin, however you want to look at it)! I have so many opposite sides to my personalty, that if i didn't have my head screwed on straight (and i think i do, generally speaking of course), then i'd be 'this close' to being called 'Sybil'! Hehe.
Which brings me to the topic of yet another new blog. Why Amber? Why another one?? Well, i didn't want to sully my other blogs with all my personal thoughts & philosophy, or as i like to call it... fillawsuffy... (a word that represents the 'top-notch' quality of my thoughts much better.. hehe)... i thought i'd start this blog. Keep the topics separate, and we'll all be happier! :-)
So...
♥ 'Halloween Howling' is for my love of Halloween, and the fact that i want to do some exclusively Halloween art as well, and might like to join HHAG...
♥ 'Rusty Old Crow' is dedicated to my love of Primitive Country decor & art
♥ 'Life in the Great White North' is for, well, dreaming of a life in Yellowknife, of course!
♥ 'Gypsy Kat's New Life' is for my dream of vagabonding around the world. A travel blog of sorts.
♥ 'Amber's Filawsuffy n Stuff' will be just me prattling on about me, my mundane life & things i care about.
Which brings me to the topic of yet another new blog. Why Amber? Why another one?? Well, i didn't want to sully my other blogs with all my personal thoughts & philosophy, or as i like to call it... fillawsuffy... (a word that represents the 'top-notch' quality of my thoughts much better.. hehe)... i thought i'd start this blog. Keep the topics separate, and we'll all be happier! :-)
So...
♥ 'Amberjoon' is for my art (illustration & fun stuff generally)
♥ 'Kitschy Cute' is for my love of kitsch, mid century modern decor & art & the collecting hoarder in me....♥ 'Halloween Howling' is for my love of Halloween, and the fact that i want to do some exclusively Halloween art as well, and might like to join HHAG...
♥ 'Rusty Old Crow' is dedicated to my love of Primitive Country decor & art
♥ 'Life in the Great White North' is for, well, dreaming of a life in Yellowknife, of course!
♥ 'Gypsy Kat's New Life' is for my dream of vagabonding around the world. A travel blog of sorts.
♥ 'Amber's Filawsuffy n Stuff' will be just me prattling on about me, my mundane life & things i care about.
(Update: It's now called, "My Life in a Cupcake")
So there you have it. My newest of my new blogs. I'm sure there will be more...
(BTW, this is this post with its original template) --->
So there you have it. My newest of my new blogs. I'm sure there will be more...
(BTW, this is this post with its original template) --->
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